So, I wanna talk about something a little less than pleasant. I have several friends that can be "hot and cold" with me and I had a thought about how these people could be detrimental to my self love. Here is a very recent example to give a clearer perspective of what I mean: These people will blow me off, not answer texts, calls, and make me come to them first with plans and they never come to me. I always have fun when I actually do hang out with these people, but because I have to work so hard to be a part of their lives and they seem to not care at all whether or not they are part of my life it just makes me feel like crap. I often wonder when they pull this stuff if there is something wrong with me. Am I annoying? Am I THAT friend that no one likes? It just makes me feel uneasy, like I'm an awkward teenager again trying to hang with the cool kids.
The thing that bothers me the most is that these certain individuals know me pretty darn well and they know how accommodating and generous I try to be (That's just how I am and how I was raised) and it makes me feel like I'm being taken advantage of when they do decide to grace me with their presence. How can I love myself when I can't get these people to love me 100% of the time.
The thing about this predicament is that I don't know how to remedy it.
Just a few thoughts I've been having lately.
Okay, enough negativity. That being said: I've been tobacco free for a week now. It's been hard, but I already feel healthier and I'm glad I finally did it since I've been making plans and talking about quitting since last October. :-p
The next couple of days I'm gonna 1. TRY and do an outfit post and 2. show off some of the crafty things I've been up to lately :-D
I learned how to make the clickable word link thingys! Hooray for me! So to test it out, I'm gonna share my Facebook and my Twitter